Self & Soul.

00.30 am of today I went to tabernacle and pray before I let myself get rest. While I was praying and closing my eyes. The vision that appeared in the inner eyelids was like a new world and I thought that is a soul's place. I looked around from the left to right side, The white and dark gray fog always float into each other, I realize the soul is a non-self thing that living in my body. I talked to them while I was meditating. The soul can make me more just an ordinary human, I let my body go and concentrate to the thing inside that, Myself and body were taken to somewhere I just know its always deeper and more deeper. I don't even know where is it but I just know that its make me to be more than me.

Rise(t).

If you turn your face upward today, you couldn't know what time is it because of we were living under the cloudy and also soft sunlight. I woke up early and wonder on that time the sun already risen or not and also in the evening I still thinking the sun already set or not. I sat in front of the white clean paper and close my eyes and imagine the feeling sun rise and set from today, How could the feeling of today would felt different or similar to another days. How much the power of sunlight can influence to your feeling and yourself.

 Goood n{:ght

Red Chirp.

 This morning was not quite the same as yesterday. Clear sky and clouds ,more sunlight , hotter weather and no wind but I got the clear and fresh voices from birds. The voices from them was drown out the classical musics that came from two big loudspeakers. My left part of body was burned from the sunlight and in front of me was the clearing sky and roof, my right hand was hiding and painting in the shadow of wall and pole. My mind still listening to the voice and also my eyes still looking for the owner. The sound from them was surrounding my body and my mind and its keep louder and louder. My mind call out the classical music after the voices lost, I guess the birds can't stand to fly against with sunlight anymore.

Good Luck and Thanks to that little b:}rds

Chased the Wind.

 

After I watched Mark Rothko's documentary last night. I do really like his routine that he always wakes up 8.30 a.m. and go to his studio and continue his painting everyday and that made me make a decision , myself was intended to do that also. After I woke up, I headed to my studio and I found the really good weather and the thing around my body and my home and sun were so nice to felt it. The wind was blew through my body and my mind and its always float and talk to my soul. I let myself chase it in the same time that sun was rising.

Goood N:)ght!

Neighbor.

 

Today I woke up by some noise from some where around my ears. While I was sleeping and dreaming my brain and thought was worked by subconscious because I didn't control and make a dream and also its always appeared while your brain was turned off. Before I decided to open my eyes from the huge free space that I got from inner eyelid was disappeared and taken place by disgusting sound. It came from my neighbor, They were cooking in front of home with 6 stoves and 6-7 persons were hitting and stirring something in the big pans. The sound was mixed and combined with conversation's voice. Finally I re-think and felt thank to them for woke me up to go paint what I was felt into my painting.

Keep Smiling :)

H(EAR).

 

Last night I went to bed with the powerful of sleepiness and tiredness combine with illness that were accumulated for long time. After I woke up I felt like everyday I wake but much more fresh except one of my organs didn't work great. My left ear hardly heard the sound of environment but still able to heard my own voice. I try hard to help my left and solve the problem thing in its but it all didn't work out so I keep that big problem later and keep my life going on. I went to faculty with perfect right and half left ear. The songs , sounds and human voices were so nice to heard through my left ear because I try my ear to focus to hear it and when I got that sound I was so happy and I knew that I was not deaf. Today got the good lesson of life which is if you know how to hear, then you will know what should to hear.

 Good Night !

The Dark Light.

 Today I had try the new method to paint. I turned on the light on ceiling and spent a few seconds to see the all thing on ceiling then turned off the light and paint. Every times when I blinked my eyes I always saw the white things in square shape and also around the white have some white soul moving. While I was closing my eyes and turn my head around, The images still appears in the same position in my eyelids. The painting today, I was painting without the light from bulb but I still saw my painting from the moon's light.

While dreaming.

Today  saw the documentary of Pablo Piccaso and I saw the painting "The Dream". He painted the woman was sleeping on the red sofa. I spent more than 20 minutes to see and get the feeling from that painting and its inspired me to this painting. My previously works about dream , I always painted about the dream that I was dreamed. From his painting makes me thought about relationship between my body and my mind while its working and dreaming.

Heaven's Flame.

 

 Last night was the first day of Chinese year. My home and some in my lane did a ceremony for that. It like a Happy New year celebration but the different thing was the first second of Chinese new year's first day have to do a benediction from god of luck and wealthiness. After we done pray we have to burn the sacrificial offering stuff. On the table we must to turn our body into north for praying directly to heaven also the smoke from red candles and many of joss sticks too!

Happy Chinese New Year !

Gooodnight!

Soulless.

 

 Today I woke up with amnesia. I forgot what day and date of today for a while. I try hard to think that am I have important thing to do and have to teach or not? I knew just the time and weather was so hot. Also today I dream so long story but after I woke up I couldn't remember at all. I try not to use help from any devices to recall my memory, 10 minutes later i got my memory back and i felt so relieve and head to studio and paint before I will lost my memory again.

Gooodream Night.

Van's Queue.

My today's dream was so funny. It all about my normally activity when i have to go to faculty. In my dream I saw my dad was standing with anger and also many people around him. I knew that what he waiting for since I saw the place he at, It was that van's waiting place that every morning i have to be there before the wheel start 5-10 minutes. In that moment my dad was queue up in 14th man but the van can carry just only 13 men that makes my dad so bored and get angry finally. The dream was so real and its also reflected the fact happened.

How Dream Appeared.

Have you ever thought before that how dream appeared in you mind. I didn't say that it appeared in your head because when you dreamed, your body and your mind were stay and play with that. Someone you were not just felt you were seeing your dream, you felt that you can walk, run even love someone even you didn't know before who was that guy in your dream. For my thought, Dream were come from 2 main things , your past life happened combined with your imagination while you were not control your consciousness. Have you ever wonder how could your sense and mind still working when you were sleeping. Who controlled yours..?

Gooodream and Night !

His & My Sin

The sin is a activity that easy to do. Mosquito is the one of animals that always challenge us to make sin by slap it. After you slap it, you would be feel satisfy that you can eradicate the small living thing that just want some a drop of blood. The fact is you totally make a huge sin because you killed the living thing even it is small. The best thing that you can do is everything except kill or intend to end up of there life. If you see someone is going to slap the mosquito and you doesn't warn or try to stop him/her, I think that you are involved with that sin already.

R.I.P.

Good Night !

Persecuted Day.

Beginning of today by the rush-life. Starting with I and my friend were late to met each like everyday time after that we catched a taxi for going to BTS unfortunately on the road that normally have a light traffic, The Bus was break down that made us waste 10 minutes on 100 meters. We arrived the BTS Surasak 8.55 am that was so trouble for us to just hope that we still can catch the van. A bit lucky I still in time and have 2 minutes left. This exciting day was make me felt some one or some huge power thing try to make us more active to go to faculty.

Gooodnight everyone （・０・）〜ｚＺｚ

Concentration.

Last Morning before I went to bed. I really intend to do a meditation in tabernacle.I starter to pray and close my eyes...and again something appear in my ears and inside my eyelids. While I was doing meditation, My mind didn't stable it was always thinking to something else. That is the hardest thing that you must get over it. The concentration will happen and appear when your mind ready to see which is nothing in your eyes , ears , body even your mind everything that you though and saw are the make up thing from your own imagination.

Goodnight!

Buddha's Voice.

Today 1.40 am before i went to bed. While I was praying in the tabernacle I heard something that quite not a human voice, its even doesn't like a voice or sound of the thing in world. Actually I always hear the kind if thing in this room while i was praying or closing my eyes. For me this thing like the Buddha's voice that try to make me focus on meditation. Sometime its like a nerve-racking thing that try to break my focus. In my tabernacle have many Statues of Buddha. I never turn on the light in that room and when I begin to pray and close my eyes the visual that I see in the inner eyelids is not a black or white but the lightening thing and Buddha's voice will appear.

Kissu 「キッス」

2.15 am. of today before i went to bed, while i was doing meditation I was interrupted from dogs' bark. Its sound so annoy and make my mind nervous. Its sound like a dark smoke that try to come inside my mind. My dream's today was very pretty for me. Its all about me and someone who i fell in love to  I still felt comforted even i woke up. We kiss and promise to each that we will be always love forever and ever. The point is i didn't her face and know who her are. I saw just an outline and shadow of the face. The power of kiss that is really cool!

Gooodnight!

Interrupted.

Today i woke up in the morning 3 times. These 3 interruption make me can't remember my dream but it make me got this painting instead. I feel so annoyed when I was necessary to woke up in the not necessary time. I bad thing when i woke up from one dream and i continue sleeping and try to consider or continue the same dream's story and also its can't make myself and my mind be offed for resting too.

Goodnight!

Friday 13th's Dream.

Around 9.30 - 10.30 am. of today i dreamed the impossible story. I was driving on a car(in fact I even can't get the driver's licence ) meanwhile i was escaping the flood also. It was so exciting dream for me because i was driving in very very fast and i didn't any crash like a professional! after i woke up i try to paint and explain all of feeling into my painting and I hope you all enjoy the Friday 13th night!

Gooodn:)ght !

YUMI 「ゆみ」

 

My today's dream was so a good story. I dreamed about one girl that i really like her, named Yumi. We was walking on the love street. We headed to someplace that have the mathematics questions were waiting us to solve. Now i am thinking that why i dreamed about this? and it still questioning to me...?

Gooodnight!

Land of Hope and Glory.

Today when while i was sat on the van, I was listening to music, Edward Elgar - Pomp and Circumstance, March No.1 , For long time ago that i used to addicted to this, Today I was back to listened again and i though that its more powerful than first times. More than 30 plays of today made me feel i was floating around the world. For someone that didn't know this great song. Click this link to download, http://www.4shared.com/mp3/I56_zXQr/Edward_Elgar_-_Pomp_and_Circum.htm

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Goodnight!

Cough.

Since yesterday until now here...I am still coughing. I really felt that inside myself have a lot bad thing and also its want to come outside my body. Sore throat made me like I was drugged and can't stop to feel it. Even the temperature of the place i went to that was so high but i though that inside me is always higher. Today was a longest suffering day for me.

Gooodnight everyone! :)

Sick and Saint M.

Today I woke up with the fever and so many of snots. Directly since i woke up i knew that my life today would be a hurry. I have to catch the van for come to faculty. They often no respect for the queue up, you have to fight with the many people that also want to catch the bus in that round and sometimes you must be selfish too for in time for your class. From last 4-5 days I had some problems about the class that i failed before but the all problems were solved. So today i got a lot of happiness from him and really more comfortable to go on study. I really super thank to Saint M!!!

All best for him and everyone!

Goodnight.

6.54 PM.

6.54 PM of today i saw the full moon in the dark sky. It so lightening thing in the sky, when the cloud move pass the moon I can saw the light that go through the cloud was so nice. Even the building around that turn on the light but its was ignored buy the full moon. Many people said that in the surfce of moon was so look like a rabbit for me i think its more look like a soul floated. From yesterday i also painted the sky at 6.14 pm. In this 2 days were so different view for me. I prefer to live in the evening and against the sunlight after it was passed from moon.

6.18 PM.

Today after i done my teaching class at student's home, while i waiting the bus for back home. I turn up my head to sigh, I saw the sky and I like it. As soon as i was home i head to studio to draw and paint it.

Dream-Talked.

Today around 8 am I dream to one of my cousin. I was talking to the telephone with her while she was staying in the banquet. I can remembered the atmosphere in that room. There was full of lights and many people wear evening dress. The still can remember the conversation, She said she miss me a lot and want me to come here right now but I was so busy in that time ( I felt that I was doing something while I was talking to her.). The weird thing is why i can see her face while we were talking to telephone?. In fact that we can just hear the voice.

Ceiling

Today i woke up around 10.30 am and I went to bed 1.15 am. before my mind was turned off to deep sleep i lay down my body and keep my eyes opening to look at the ceiling I didn't remember how much time i spent. After i woke up but my body still on the bed , I let my eyes look at the ceiling again. The difference thing from before bed and after bed are light and sleepiness.From 2 periods of observation I found many of different feeling...The funny things is before I go to bed my mind didn't want to, On the other hand after I wake my mind really want to continue sleeping!

Goodnight!

Raindear.

3.13 am. Of today While i was watching soccer. Rain was falling down heavy and more heavy. I looked  the sky through the window. I saw nothing but my eye can feel the obscure , shadowy , gloomy. The size of rain's drop were so big and transparent clear. In the moment of black shadowy sky no one can feel the way of that but its made people sleep more comfortable , deeper and deeper. That would be great if every nights have this thing happen before we go to bed.
Goodn:)ght

OverTired (OT)

Today I woke by sleeping for 2.30 hours. The first day in faculty almost made me upset. The morning class was Psychology. Its just like everyone know that every first times for teacher and student to meet up each other so we have to exchange some of our short profile. Stand up front the room and tell who you are bla bla bla~ that was so nothing for me. I think if i could spend this time that i wasted to get more useful i would spend for sleep for get enough power to study in the after class. The afternoon class for me was a Design Fundamental2 class which I was failed in last 3 years ago. Lucky for that they understand and accept me to study in this class. After of all my class i have changed my duty from student to math teacher. I start to teach around 6.30 pm to 8.30 pm. and spend 45 minutes for back home. So the was my painting come from the bored , tired and happiness (after i done my teaching and got $$$)

Have a great rest night!

Attachment.

Today I went to bed so lately and woke up after the lunch time. I dreamed really many stories about Japan , My family , organ . . . All of this i hardly can remember it at all i just remember that i was stay in Japan with someone that i believe they are my family and the another was about organ of someone i was not sure and can't specify what is that. After i woke up. I still dizzy and really want to sleep again but hungriness made me can't. The painting is about the attachment from dream and my feeling. Some morning i dreamed but after i woke up i can't remember the vision of that but i still felt good, happy, sad...I think feeling is the something that we can't even see but its can make you cry and smile such a wonderful thing in our body!

Gooodnight!

Hardly.

Today I had no dream (maybe had but i can't remember :) but i got a lot of feeling from today. Daytime my big family, we went to have a sea food. At the sea food restaurant had a lot and a lot of people. Also my family's members , I had lunch in really bad mood, I felt so cramped and after we billed I still felt I didn't eat anything yet. After that I went to Siam Paragon to buy a papers for painting while i was walking the cold air in central made me so sleepy. I back home by hided motorcycle but before that I have waited for bus for 20 minutes. So all of my activities today. I really do not enjoy it.

:(

Morning Happened [01.01.12]

 

Today I went to bed about 3.30 am. and after that 5 hours the I was woke by mantra from my home's behind. They made a merit for first day of the year. Before I woke, While I was sleeping and listening to mantra. I thought that mantra was a dream, My brain started to create the image of Buddha. That was great that when you hear something.your brain can transfrom the sound to image! even you don't see anything.

Goodn:)ght!

Happy This Year!

Happy New Year ! 明けおめでとう！

 Japan ver.

All super extra best for everyone.!